One word cannot describe who I am. I am very complex but simple, loud but quiet... I am a constant contradiction to myself.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

You Can't Stop Change

To change life, or just leave it has it is... things are the things I ponder. Soon I will be finishing my bachelors in human services with an emphasis in victim/survivor services. I have worked hard to obtain this degree. Before I am done I will have completed FOUR 180 hour internships plus 5 semesters of FULL course loads. Along with going to school, and having internships I also work full time and have a four year old son.

At my current job I work evening shift which I love because I do not have to be up at any certain time every day so I can just let me son wake me whenever he gets out of bed. However, starting in August I will be working 20 hours (during the day) a week an hour drive away from my house and then working my full time job from 5-1 at night, and my son will be 5 and going to school from 8-3. For four months I will hardly ever see my son and it upsets me a lot. I am used to being with him all the time and I do not want to give that up. However, if I do not graduate (i am so close) then I did all the work for nothing... if I do graduate I will need to get a different job... SCARY!!!

I have been at my current place of employment for almost 6 years. Change is so scary. On top of that my family and I were thinking about moving to Colorado. I would love to have a "day job" so I can spend nights with my family, but the change scares me....

Monday, April 16, 2012

Relay for Life

So, it is getting to be the time for Relay for Life. I am looking forward to getting to know more SURVIVORS!! As you would know my preacher's wife Lisa recently passed away from lung cancer and our church is putting together a team called "Lisa's Zebras" so participate in the Relay for Life.

In 2005 I lost my paternal grandfather to lung cancer also. Relay for Life is done to help raise money for cancer research! What we have now in painful chemo treatments. A friend of mine is currently battling bone cancer and she has some days where she cannot get out of bed to spend time with her children. Supporting finding the cure for cancer is very dear to my heart. If anyone wants to help that would be so awesome!!!