As the year is coming to an end I find myself looking back at what I have done. Have I done anything significant? Maybe I have. I have taken time to play with my son. When I say play I do not mean be at home while he plays in his room. I mean getting on the floor and playing games. We have played cards, board games, cars, and of course the ever so blessedly invented Legos. It may not be significant to others, but it certainly was to me.
I have made my life by working hard and continue to do so. I look at my 5 year old son and smile because he is a part of me. His laugh is contagious and his sense of humor is fantastic. I am not even sure how I received such a large blessing but I am forever grateful to God for thinking I did deserve him.
I have also taken time to have a few date nights with my husband. Although those have been few and far between they were still important to me. Once we went to see a movie and he slept through the whole thing. Although I found myself wondering why I just paid 8 dollars for him to have a nap. I realized he was tired and probably did not want to go but went anyway for me. Thus making it significant to me.
As my life has passed by quickly and not without pain I also know I am the cause of some of that pain. I have hurt people in my life and will forever be sorry. However, I do not regret the mistakes I made. The mistakes made me and continue to make me who I am. I would not be me without my flaws mixed in. I think things would be easier and love would flow with more ease, but life it what you make it. There are things I have done that I would never want anyone to know, but if someone asks me about it, the truth they shall receive. I cannot hide from things I have done because they would be sure to sneak up on me. My life now is wonderful and past offenses are forgotten because there is no shame in my game.